Grief reminds us that life is broken and sorrow reminds us that we are not whole. But we do not fall into despair. We fall into Jesus. We grieve hard and long. We mourn deeply and cry long. We feel the loss as close as the skin stretched tight over bone. Our faces are wet … Continue reading Fall Into Jesus
Nearly two years ago, I wrote a post based off a quote of Bonhoeffer’s that expressed the turmoil of wondering who he really was—one person says one thing, I feel another. He closed his poem with the simple line—“whoever I am, thou knowest, O God, I am thine.” If I can be gut-wrenchingly honest, I … Continue reading Who am I?
Jesus, You restore my soul. It is well with my soul, only because of You. This past Wednesday, my grandpa went home to be with Jesus. It is surreal to think that never again will we see his twinkly eyes and ever-present smile. Never again will he give those hard, tight hugs that squeezed … Continue reading Grandpa
Can you hear the drums, Fernando? I remember long ago another starry night like this. He was a beautiful soul and I miss him already. Just as I miss his cousin of sorts, Rip, who died just two days before him. Fernando was one of my favorites. He had a quiet personality and preferred to … Continue reading My Friend, Fernando
In just a few short hours, it will be a new year. 2015. I can’t say I’ve been waiting all my life for this year. Nor can I say that I’ve even thought much about what this New Year may bring. But there are no backward looks at 2014. I have no desire to stay … Continue reading Forgetting the Past, Straining Forward
Loss changes us. Loss takes away what we love and leaves a hole that may never get filled. Time does not heal all wounds, nor does love always happen again. Sometimes it is far easier to hold onto a beautiful memory or a special photograph than it is to be vulnerable and love again. It … Continue reading Love Again